What's New

So....yeah, I think it may have been more than a week since I last updated. Crap. Oh, well. I'll try to be better at that.

There's been a lot of stuff that's gone on since my last post. I went to ShakeXperience, for one, and it was AMAZING!!! I made some pretty awesome friends, and I read a sonnet during the performance, and I really learned to love Shakespeare even more! I also learned that, considering I've grown up right next to Shakespeare in Delaware Park, I've always been very Shakespeare spoiled. We went to see a community production of Julius Caesar, and I was surprised by the small stage and everything, just because I'm used to a big hill and a big, permanent stage...and it was the first night. Some girls went to see it the second night, and said that they fixed most of the problems.

Other things that happened---um, my sister's grad party(which was good for her but made me feel totally unloved), Godspell (2 shows, very much fun), and....oh, yeah. My best friend Rachel's coming to visit.


I would totally be pissed at her right now but for the fact that I can't. And that pisses me off even more. Seriously---if Rachel acted like this when she was still living in Eden, I wouldn't even be talking to her right now. But just because she's going back to China in two weeks, I can't be as pissed off as I want to be. I may just have to plan things for when she's here so I can make it clear that my life doesn't revolve around her every whim. Seriously, why should I expect her to stay at my house for most of her visit? You know, BECAUSE she's my best friend, and BECAUSE I spent so much time trying to clean it up for her. But apparently, I shouldn't expect that, because "other people will want her too".

It still pisses me off.


It's just---I give up SO MUCH for her. My time, my money---when she visits, and throughout the year. I'm tempted to just say "I'm done" and not talk to her at all when she comes this time.

You know what? It's her choice. I'm going to be just as calm and sarcastic as she is when we meet up again. I'm tired of putting so much into this and getting so little out. Let's see how you like a reflection, Rachel dearest.